Please share your story:
On August 24th 2015 my world flipped upside down. I found myself at 25, in a doctors office, waiting for what would be very bad news. Deep down I already knew what the Dr. would say. Let me back up for just a minute. Two months before I was driving. I had an itch on my breast and noticed something funny. That stuck with me. A month later I remembered and my husband checked. He confirmed he felt something too. I remember crying and feeling so silly. A lump? No. It's nothing. Then sharp shooting pain started and the Dr's appointment I had was pushed up. Suddenly I was told to get an ultrasound done, then a mammogram, and then a Biopsy. So on August 24th, the doctor came in and sat down. She had the test results. “We have your results from the biopsy….Unfortunately, You have Breast Cancer”. Suddenly my life stopped. I soon learned that I have stage 2 ductal carcinoma Breast Cancer. That scary "C" word you always hear about but think you'll never get it. Followed by another "C" world. Chemo. My future became a blur with a giant red question mark that seems to haunt me. That week was one of the hardest times in my life filled with many doctors, tests, and fear. I said at the beginning of this year, that it was the year to fight fear in the face. I had no idea how many times that would ring true. It was like all my fears where thrown in my face. Cancer. Chemotherapy. Surgery. (Possible) Mastectomy. Fertility Issues (due to chemo). Hair Loss. How could I handle the thought of being boob-less and hair-less all at once? I can’t even begin to describe the pain and the fear that comes along with being diagnosed with Cancer.
Without thinking to much I started on IVF treatments right away so that they can extract Eggs and freeze some embryos, so that I have a better chance at getting pregnant when this is over. Chemotherapy will start soon. I am so scared. I am scheduled to start on October 1st. When I sat down one night to read all the possible side effects to the drugs I will be on, I sat down and cried. My husband held me. He's been amazing though all of this. He's told me I'll be beautiful no matter what, even when I have a bald head.
You're probably wondering how am I able to share this? I have to come to appreciate the little things. My family and my husband have my been rock. They are constantly checking in on me and asking how I'm doing. God has given me peace and strength. I have my good days and my bad days, but I believe that God is with me. Anytime I am scared I tell my husband and we bow or kneel in prayer and talk to God. For these reasons, I am able to smile. For these reasons, I have hope. I have no idea what the next year is going to be like, but I do know it will be the hardest year of my life. I don't always feel so confident, and if you are going through something tough I'm sure you know how hard it is to fight through it, but I will not give up hope. I will fight this. In God's name I will win this battle. If you find yourself feeling alone, I urge you to pray. You can also contact me and I would be happy to talk about the struggles that comes with being a cancer fighter.
If you'd like to read more, I've started blogging about my story at BreastCancerAt25.com.
How has your story shaped you into who you are today?:
My story as a breast cancer fighter has just started. I'm not sure how it has shaped me, but what I do hope is this. I don't want to waste cancer. I believe that I have cancer for a reason. I don't know how God will use this in my life, but I pray that it will help me become a better person. I pray that it will help me help someone else. I don't know what that looks like now, only time will tell.
On a much smaller scale, I do see that I value my time with people that I love more. I hold the memories I spend with family and friends so much closer to my heart now. I've also been praying and doing my best to lean onto God, so I pray that God's love will start shining through me.
Why were you compelled to share your story?:
So that I can be someone's hope. So that anyone who stumbles on this knows, there is hope for a brighter future. You are not alone.
What encouraging words would you give to someone who shares a similar story? :
You're not alone. Don't loose Hope. It is a daily fight for me to be positive and have Hope. It is so important when I'm feeling down or sad to tell someone. When the pain of what's happening physically and emotionally strikes me, I go back to this verse. Philippians 4:6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.