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Clickforhope, Adoption, Orphan CareJasmine LopezComment

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Over 5 years ago God was distinctly working on Tom and my heart towards orphan care. James 1:27 had hit us like a ton and bricks and we knew that this was a command to us to care for orphans. As we wrestled in prayer with how that would look for our family (prayer, supporting others, fostering, adopting etc) We were both certain that at this time, God was calling us to adopt internationally. So we started the process of adopting a girl from Thailand. We were in that program for 2 1/2 years when the program came to a halt due to government issues. We were devastated by the thought of switching countries. We had grown to love Thailand and its people as we had prayed for them for over 2 years. We had to grieve the loss of a child we thought would be from Thailand. God directed us through many circumstances to China. The trafficking issue had been a heavy issue on our hearts while we were in the Thai program and our eyes had been opened to the same issues facing girls in China. So we began our process in China to our little girl. Only a couple months into our process God brought to our attention a 5 year old boy with cerebral palsy and profound developmental delays. We knew he was to be ours and we started the journey to our Hudson. Even during Hudson's adoption I knew that I had a daughter in China and that we would be going back at some point to get her. The waiting on the Lord part was hard for me as I had realized this unknown girl had become an idol in my life. I was turning a good thing, that God had called me to do, into something that was hurting my relationship with Christ.
In January of this year (2015), I called a friend of mine who works for our adoption agency to see what the upfront fees would be for starting a new adoption. {Just trying to get info for a year or so down the road when we start an adoption again.} She told me that it would probably be over $6000 initially to begin. So I thanked her and in my mind was thinking.....well that won't happen anytime soon. Before we got off the phone she said to me that she was going to start praying that we would adopt from Suixi, which was a new partnership orphanage with our agency. After we hung up, I went online and watched a video about the Suixi orphanage and then looked at the waiting child list. I saw our Fallon immediately and melted. "Lord, why do I feel so drawn to this baby?" I texted my friend and asked her if she had Fallon's file that I could peek at. She sent it over and I read it carefully. Fallon's special needs sounded scary but I couldn't get over this feeling of love I had for her. I had some good prayer time that afternoon. Praying with my hands open, I said these words "Lord, please place in my hands what you want me to have and take out of my hands what you don't want me to have."

God gave me a sense of peace that I couldn't explain.
I showed her picture and videos to Tom that night and we had a good discussion about her. Tom, although he knew he wanted to adopt again, thought the timing wasn't right and it would be best to wait another year and try to save money, etc. Again, I had an unexplainable peace. The next day I was confident that God had given me an immediate love for Fallon because I was the one that was to be His hands and feet in finding a family to adopt her. So I began praying for her often. Thinking of ways I could advocate for her. {and watching her videos weekly!} My love was growing stronger, but the peace of submitting to Tom's decision and ultimately wanting what God wanted for me in His timing was so evident. I was not wrestling with discontentment, as I had in the past.
Fast forward 1 month.....It was a Friday afternoon and I was on my way home from school when one of my best friends, Jess, called me. She told me that a few minutes before our agency had sent out an email giving updates and advocating for the Suixi kids. There were new videos of Fallon. I rushed home to watch videos of this sweet baby walking and smiling. Once again my heart melted. I texted Tom and told him he had to watch the videos. He told me he was just leaving work and I said he needed to just watch one really quickly. A minute later he texted me back and told me that I was "evil". LOL I laughed and told him I was just so excited that she was going to get a family now. How could anyone not snatch up with sweet baby girl now??!! There was a long pause and he texted these words "What do we need to do to put her on hold" What??? Are you serious?? I was NOT expecting those words from Tom and I immediately burst into tears as I realized that God had let me fall so deeply and instantly in love with this baby girl because she was MINE. This was the baby girl I had been praying for for over 5 years. God needed me at a point of complete surrender to His will before granting me my desire, a desire that all along He had given me, but I needed to want more than anything His timing and not my own.

We left to pick up sweet Fallon from China on Wednesday, October 14th. We went to Hong Kong for a few days before we headed to Mainland China for a Monday "Gotcha Day" of Fallon. Thursday morning, October 15th, the morning after we had arrived on the other side of the world we received a call that would rock my world. My 24 yr old brother had unexpectedly passed away sometime the night before (while we were flying). The news was devastating. I felt helpless. I was on the other side of the world and couldn't be with my family and I had a baby girl that was waiting for me to get her in just a few short days. I wrestled with was I going to be able to find joy during this overwhelming grief? I wrestled with the guilt of having joy during this awful time. It was a lot of emotion to deal with all at once. But God was gracious to me and was able to give me complete joy the moment I laid eyes on our sweet girl. She is a JOY. She smiles all the time. She is so loving. She is God's kindness and gift to not only me but my whole family during this time. Tom was amazing to me as we both processed the loss and gain of the past month. He would step right in when I would need a moment to myself or a shoulder to cry on. God is faithful. God is loving. God is kind. God is good.

How has your story shaped who you are today?:

I have a deeper understanding of not only God's amazing adoption of me into His family, but of His unspeakable, unconditional, never-ending love for us and His kindness to us.

Why were you compelled to share your story?:

I hope it will be an encouragement to someone that might be struggling with loss. I hope it might spur others into looking at James 1:27 for their own family and see what God would have them do for the plight of the orphan.

What encouraging words would you give to someone who shares a similar story?:

God can and will give you joy and peace in the midst of great sorrow. Look to Him, Call on Him and Fall into His loving arms. Only He can give you this joy and peace and hope for an amazing future with Him one day.